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Romantic Vivisection
02:40
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The mirror in the morning light
Leaves my body feeling like
I just drank some pesticide
I cant see my face inside
I'll try my best to paint it on
This body I call a prison
There's a girl inside a cage
While a boy takes center stage
Like an actor on TV
Never been the real me
But changing right now seems like hell
So I'll just learn to hate myself
If you insulate
the self hate
It's now a part of you
You have to kill that too
It's cutthroat
I keep choke-
Ing on this feeling deep inside
Somethings wrong
I know what it is
But I'm too scared to admit
That I'd rather fail at being a woman
Than go on being a man
If you remember him could you please try to forget if you can
Pray every day Ill wake up in the body I belong
Sometimes I don't know if I am even real at all
I only hope I find the girl inside but even then
If god wasn't a cunt she'd cut me up and try again
Romantic Vivisection
Kill me and then go to heaven
Take me apart and put me back together
As something beautiful forever
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Indisposed
I wish I saw in photos
what I feel in my soul
I wish I could be beautiful
I wish I had some Adderall
Focus and forget it all
Kill the clouds and drown the sun
Bury it and everyone
Forgets
She exists
Never heard of her Not a word ever
But I'm Still chasing mirrors
In my dreams
Only place she's real it seems
I wish that I could forget
I wish I wouldn't regret
The time that I never knew I lost
Pink clouds obscuring the sun
Set, Memories of a son get
In the way like the window frost
I wish cute makeup and clothing
Could stop the door from closing
Could be her longer than a night
But when I see her again
I'll make the mirror my friend
Able to pierce through the morning light
I wish that I could forget
I wish I wouldn't regret
The time that I never knew I lost
Pink clouds obscuring the sun
Set, Memories of a son get
In the way like the window frost
I wish that I could forget
I wish I wouldn't regret
The time that I never knew I lost
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Aw shit
Saw it
Think I'm getting nauseous
Cautious
Watch this
Delete Everything off it
Jpeg
You're dead
Poison yeah its blood-red
Light head
I dread
Body like it's full of led
Adderall
end it all
Slit my throat and set me free
Estradiol
Will it stall
The poison that's been killing me
Missing Link
I just think
It's better not to ask
If this could make me normal
Could I ever be normal
Always something to remind you what you look like
Sheer the skin here's hoping that you'll look right
Cause it all gets frozen in a jpeg
Bit off and you'll want a bullet in your head
Try to down a few pills to forget it
Take it long enough and maybe you'll transmit
Can't change the past or your blood
No arc to save you from the flood
Tried so hard to dry the rain from my skin
Stuck in the dark, couldn't soar when I was flightless
Do my best to kill the signs I had a twin
Can't restrain all the time I was deprived with
Can't scream with the body full of poison
The lock's jammed and the door won't open
The molly didn't work so I'd never be rollin
Now I'm like a cat the way I'm living in the moment
Half dead angels, slits in wings
Thrown up to the wires, wrapped around by my shoestrings
All I want is bliss with the way I sing
Spiritual unwrapping of my threads like I'm stone free
Physical form without the name they know
Midwest woods, get my flesh torn by a wendigo
Faceless corpse just like Jane Doe
I'm just putting on an act and I feel like a puppet show
Aw shit
Saw it
Think I'm getting nauseous
Cautious
Watch this
Delete Everything off it
Jpeg
You're dead
Poison yeah its blood-red
Light head
I dread
Body like it's full of led
Adderall
end it all
Slit my throat and set me free
Estradiol
Will it stall
The poison that's been killing me
Missing Link
I just think
It's better not to ask
If this could make me normal
Could I ever be normal
All of a sudden
I don't feel so good
I thought you understood
But I fucking doubt it
But the way your acting
It's interacting in my gut
All these meds I fucking took
This might be the big one
Am I finally done, Here
Might have one or two more years
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5. |
Emo Girl Ex Machina
03:16
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6. |
Frogs (feat. Murrumur)
06:14
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I see how you look at me
Like something dead bringing disease
An awful stare I hardly breathe
To be repaired indefinitely
You always notice when I'm near
Your eyes tinged with hints of fear
Or maybe it's disgust
Being human's way too much
I'd rather be a blob of flesh
A contraption built for death
I'll be the monster that you see
Everything you don't want me to be
Covering my eyes when I'm outside
Cold ice cold stares penetrating every angle
I can't take it
I can feel your
Words
They're just words
They're just words
They're just words
They're just noise
They're just spiralling out into wars
I was never wanted there and so i disappeared
They could kill me if they wanted but for now they just stare
Like a nail inside my skull
An image pierced through the steel hull
They string me up by the wrong name
Can't feel the pulsing in my veins
I only feel the stares
I wish I didn't care
Failing to remember any day, any week, any month phasing out, falling down under blur
Feels like it's implanted in my head so to speak pacing round and round in circles while I'm eaten by the birds
Buried off the backroads
Overexposed
What's the color of my hex code?
What's the color of my hex code?
I wish I was a frog
I don't wanna care about you
I'd rather be a fairy than an alien
Winged like an avian, glowing like a gradient
Ditch another alias and find a new ingredient
Lilith full of lithium and seroquel just let her in
And it works like clockwork
Sew together patchwork
Pulling teeth from the sleepers
I promise it could always get worse
Can you tell me when it's over?
Can you tell me when it's over?
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7. |
Territorial Pissings
02:35
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8. |
Fingers
02:22
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I live I die in obscurity
Oh god oh why there's no cure for me
If I inject bleach straight into my veins
Could I wake up with a new face and new name
Never been quite sure of the real me
But I'm not scared of them forgetting
Cause when our fingers intertwine I don't feel anything
And when I'm with you I feel fine I don't feel anything
I don't see anything I don't hear anything
I don't really care about anything else when I'm with you
And I don't know what I would do
If I didn't have you
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